Day 8: “Will you always take care of me?”

I thought my “wonder” today was going to be me posting a photo of Takis with a can of La Croix. What a wonder the combo of spice + crunch + fizzle can do to a palette.

But then I overheard something a little more wonderful…

When Nick was putting pajamas on Bennett after his bath, Bennett asked him, “Will you always take care of me?”

I don’t know why but that question got inside of me (and it wasn’t even asked to me!). He has awareness, and impressive and compassionate thoughts.

Will you always take care of me?

I hope so, my love. I hope we all take care of each other with our love forever and ever and ever.

My boy turns three in 10 days. I’ve been reflecting (and crying! gosh…) about my role as “mom.” Tonight I RSVPd to a birthday party. For years I talked to other moms as the “big sister,” but now that my child is walking, talking, makng friends, I’ve entered the new land of talking-with-other-moms as a mama myself.

Life, man. Life. And time.

In 18 years I will be 50. 18 years ago I was 14, just starting out in water polo, about to get clear braces, and about to begin thinking about my driver’s permit.

There is so much of me that still feels like I am that 14 year old girl. So much of me feels like I would stay that girl forever. Now I’m 32. In 18 year I’ll be 50. In 10 days I will have a three-year-old.

Time, man. Time.

Will you always take care of me?

Spice + Bubbles